My Story

Last updated November 14, 2017.

Hello. This is me!

Hello. This is me!

My name is Caitlyn. I am a 2016 graduate of the International House of Prayer University in Kansas City, MO, and I’m currently a full-time missionary staff member at The Prayer Room Missions Base in Arlington, Texas.

AWANA with my brother

I was born as the oldest of four kids into a Christian homeschooling family, and I first opened my heart to Jesus at age three. I loved Jesus, and I even remember certain moments, very early in my childhood, when I know I heard His voice. I had an insatiable curiosity about salvation, heaven, hell, Jesus’ return, the antichrist, resurrected bodies, etc. 

However, as I grew to nine, ten, eleven years old, I became increasingly aware of the darkness in my heart. I wouldn’t have used those words, of course, but I knew that I was selfish, scornful, and closed off more often than I’d like to admit. Above all else, I was terrified of being seen as “spiritual.” To be spiritually expressive was to be vulnerable, and so I chose to shut down around churchy things. I never stopped praying, but I tucked that part of myself almost completely out of view.

Kim Walker (Jesus Culture) taught me how to worship in June 2006.

Kim Walker (Jesus Culture) taught me how to worship in June 2006.

Finally, my parents “forced” me to join the church youth group. Gradually over the next few years, God began opening me up. I started raising my hands in worship and praying out loud in groups. I learned what spiritual warfare was. I was going on mission trips, journaling my heart out, and listening to that still, small, sweet whisper of God’s voice. In December 2005 I first encountered Jesus as a passionate warrior lover in the Circle series by Ted Dekker. I fell in love with a Person I finally saw in flashing Technicolor brightness. The next summer, in June 2006, my youth group went to our first Jesus Culture conference. That was when I first encountered the Holy Spirit in a big, real way. I saw healings, heard tongues, received prophetic words, and got a breakthrough of freedom in worship that became a key element of my relationship with God. He became the driving vision of my life.

That time was insane for my youth group. Revival hit us so hard, our pastors didn’t even know what to do with it at first! Students were praying for each other, laying hands on everything that moved, healing each other, prophesying over each other… we experienced a spiritual growth spurt that changed all of our lives.

The little room where I met with God for four years.

The little room where I met with God for four years.

After I graduated high school, I went to Azusa Pacific University to study theatre. That was where my prayer life began to grow deep. I would spend hours every week in the little prayer chapel, worshipping, interceding, and letting God sort through my heart. During that period, something he had marked me with during the youth group revival began to resurface in force in my heart. He had called me Mary of Bethany, and confirmed it through one crazy prophetic encounter after another. He was drawing me deeper into the secret place to utterly waste my life on Him.

As the time of my college graduation grew closer, I suddenly didn’t have peace about pursuing an acting career in Hollywood. My heart was being drawn towards prayer, worship, and ministry. I had heard of IHOPKC during high school, and over the years I had listened to many of the worship cds and a few of the teachings. The idea of a 24/7 prayer room where I could waste my life like Mary of Bethany at the feet of Jesus captived me. I would frequently daydream about moving to Kansas City for the One Thing Internship, but I was still convinced it wasn’t “practical”.

Finally, two years after graduation, I took the plunge, and in July 2012, I was packing my car and driving alone to Kansas City for the One Thing Internship. I drank in all of the teaching on the Bridegroom heart of God and the end times. I practised prophesying and watched God speak through us. I hit the streets to touch people in Jesus’ name. I learned to fast and to sustain prayer. All of the interns became like family.

Best four years of my life.

Towards the end of my internship, God burned a passion into me for missions and the prayer movement and the forerunner ministry, all leading up to the glorious return of Jesus Christ to the earth. There came a point (click here to read the fuller story) when I knew that the only thing I wanted to do was come back to this place to study His Word and be an active part of the watching, praying generation that God will use to usher in His Kingdom.

After OTI, I spent eight months at home working and catching up online with the semester I missed, then returned to Kansas City in August 2013 as a sophomore IHOPU student (click here for IHOPU FAQ). Over the next few years, IHOPU gave me so many precious opportunities. In the Forerunner School of Ministry, I was studying things like theology of Israel, the Song of Solomon, eschatology, hermeneutics, supernatural ministry, leadership, and teaching and preaching. I travelled to Chicago, Pasadena, and College Station on ministry trips to encourage local believers, evangelise, and help fuel prayer and worship. I even got to sing, play keys, and even lead a bit for a student worship team.

In my senior year, I served on an externship at The Prayer Room Missions Base (TPR) in Arlington, Texas. (Click here for TPR FAQ) I fell in love with The Prayer Room, and for four specific reasons (prayer room, community, end times, and teaching– read about those HERE), I knew God was inviting me to come back and staff as a full-time intercessory missionary.

I graduated from IHOPU in May 2016, spent the rest of the year at home in California working and developing financial partnership, and in January 2017 I finally, officially MOVED TO TEXAS to join staff at TPR. My primary commitment is as a worshipper and intercessor in the prayer room itself. I lead worship at least ten hours a week, and I serve as a “gatekeeper” ushering and section leading for the room. I also serve as the Forerunner Equipping Center coordinator, which right now includes our young adult Immerse internship and our School of Supernatural Ministry and will eventually include more courses and programs. In total, my week consists of 30 hours in the prayer room and 15 hours of service, including admin, meetings, and teaching.

Leading worship at The Prayer Room.

I am so grateful for my journey. From my earliest days of fascination with the end times, to my encounters with the Holy Spirit as a teen, to catching a vision for the global prayer movement at IHOPKC, to stepping into full-time prayer and worship ministry at The Prayer Room, God has been so faithful in His leadership over my life. I am more in love with Him than I have ever been, and I am wholeheartedly committed to wasting my life at His feet like Mary of Bethany to see His dreams come true — that “from the rising of the sun to its setting [His] name will be great among the nations, and in every place incense will be offered to [His] name, and a pure offering.” (Malachi 1:11)

May the Lamb that was slain receive the reward of His suffering.

Catch me up in Your story
All my life for Your glory
–“All Is For Your Glory” by Lisa Gotshall


10 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Christopher Espinoza
    Oct 30, 2014 @ 13:47:13

    I am truly touched by your testimony on how the Lord has captivated your heart. I to have been feeling the same way and i was hoping you could help me with some question. I am from California and i feel the lord is calling me to ihop-kc. Everything seems to be falling into place. But my main concern is finding a place to live that is affordable for me. I am 18 years old and employed at Starbucks coffee so i plan to transfer to KC. Work part time and go to school at ihop-kc FMA. I am planning to fly to KC on Dec8,2014-Dec10,2014. And God willing hoping to start on January19.
    If you could help me out by telling how exactly you did it. I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks and God bless you. 🙂


  2. Caitlyn
    Oct 31, 2014 @ 20:34:05

    Thanks so much for your comment, Christopher! It’s a blessing to hear that my story can be an encouragement to you! I know you must have a crazy story of your own. 🙂 I’m so excited for you to come out here and jump into FMA. I’d love to hook you up with some resources whereby you can find good housing with ihoppers. Can you email me and I can point you toward a few places?


  3. Hannah
    Oct 20, 2015 @ 05:58:17

    This is amazing!! I’m going to follow your blog.


  4. Kahiro
    Feb 25, 2016 @ 03:00:11

    Hi Caitlyn,really loved and blessed by your testimony..grew radically through great encounters myself.I am and have been a huge lover of ihopkc worship and teachings(Bridegroom/bride paradigm ) and stumbled upon your blog while looking for some ihop thing..nway,loved it and will hopefully look at the teachings posted later..I reside in Kenya,East Africa..much blessings.


    • Caitlyn
      Feb 25, 2016 @ 05:35:45

      That’s fantastic! Thanks so much for stopping by – there’s a subscribe button on the side of this page if you want to stay in touch. Help from Kansas City!


  5. Kahiro
    Feb 25, 2016 @ 03:01:20

    Hi Caitlyn,
    really loved and blessed by your testimony..grew radically through great encounters myself.I am and have been a huge lover of ihopkc worship and teachings(Bridegroom/bride paradigm ) and stumbled upon your blog while looking for some ihop thing..nway,loved it and will hopefully look at the teachings posted later..I reside in Kenya,East Africa..much blessings.


  6. Caitlyn
    Jan 04, 2018 @ 08:55:29

    You literally just “liked” my comment on a FB post from Tosca Lee and I felt compelled to click on your FB and found your testimony! First, it’s always awesome to meet a fellow “Caitlyn!!!” What stood out to me the most in reading your testimony was about the Circle trilogy by Ted Dekker! Abba used that trilogy to start me in my journey as well!!! He is so good! On New Years Eve I live streamed the OneThing2017 conference in Kansas City, soooo good!! He is so amazing with how He is working! May He continue to bless you and draw you closer to His heart!! We serve an amazing Abba!


    • Caitlyn
      Jan 04, 2018 @ 08:58:45

      That’s amazing! So glad to meet you. I love how God connects people so randomly. 🙂 Feel free to add me on Facebook!


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